Now I look more at the blogs I wrote for you, and I realize that was the situation.... I cared a lot about you, and at the same time, you also cared a lot about yourself, wow.

Haha. It is silly, the only reason I write this blog is so you can read it.... Now I am writing it tonight, after I have wondered so much if you can even make me happy. I think I am to the point where I just want to quit, forever.

I spent so much time wondering how I can make everyone around me happy, but I wonder why no one does the same to me. You don’t find a way to make me happy, you simply try to find a way to preserve your own happiness, I don’t think such a selfish attitude is one that I want to follow...

I should realize it when you seem to be content that we can not see each other for 3 weeks or longer. That is ridiculous to me... No matter how happy you make me, I will never go for weeks without seeing my girlfriend again, unless it is completely unavoidable, and that is not the situation here.

Now I am so unhappy tonight... Why don’t you chat with me again when you care more about me, instead of only caring about yourself... That is how I felt about you.

Haha, I was soooo tired earlier, so I fell asleep, but now I am awake grrrrr.... I saw that you wrote a blog, but it is in Chinese hahahaha, so I decided to write one in English so you can read it :D

I always have a good time when I spend the weekend with you, and this time it was no different :) I know maybe it seemed boring at Starbucks because I wanted to read a book, but you know what? I have had no time to do nothing haha, I have always been going somewhere and doing something every day of the week :| I visit you in Tainan, or visit Taipei with Kay, so it felt good to relax and read at Starbucks, while sitting next to you :)

Also, I found something out this weekend :O It is much harder to say goodbye when I am not riding the train :( Even after you went through the gate, I had trouble walking away, I felt so sad :( When I ride the train, I don’t think about leaving for another 3 hours, because I am busy riding the train haha... By the time I get home from Tainan, it hurts less, but when I said bye to you at the train station, I was only a few minutes from home, so it hurt much more than I expected :S Does it make sense? Haha...

Oh, they gave me a new class to teach Wednesday, I think I mentioned it to you. Today, I learned what type of class it will be, and it is one of the more difficult classes to teach haha. It is the class with the students that are in junior high school. Their English is decent, so they are smarter than the other students we teach. The problem is, they usually aren’t as interested in learning English, so they speak Chinese more, and they pay attention less.... Which makes it harder to teach haha. Oh well, I should be excited for a challenge, instead of worrying about it :)

Wow, now I realize that I am writing less and less on the blog for you to read, so I should write something every day, right?

By the way, I really hope I can buy a scooter this weekend :O It is possible that we might not meet this weekend, unless you want to come here and try to find a scooter with me :S I am not asking you to do that though, I know you didn’t like it here so much haha. No matter what, I will be thinking about you this weekend :D And if I buy a scooter, it will be great for the next time you decide to come here, because we can ride the scooter somewhere :)