Haha. It is silly, the only reason I write this blog is so you can read it.... Now I am writing it tonight, after I have wondered so much if you can even make me happy. I think I am to the point where I just want to quit, forever.

I spent so much time wondering how I can make everyone around me happy, but I wonder why no one does the same to me. You don’t find a way to make me happy, you simply try to find a way to preserve your own happiness, I don’t think such a selfish attitude is one that I want to follow...

I should realize it when you seem to be content that we can not see each other for 3 weeks or longer. That is ridiculous to me... No matter how happy you make me, I will never go for weeks without seeing my girlfriend again, unless it is completely unavoidable, and that is not the situation here.

Now I am so unhappy tonight... Why don’t you chat with me again when you care more about me, instead of only caring about yourself... That is how I felt about you.