From April 9th, 2009

As I sit here on the bus, I can only think of you, and of my job... I have a million thoughts on my mind but I don’t know what to say, or how to say it haha. You ask yourself if this is too good to be true, and I think the same thing myself. Moving to Taiwan has been a very good experience for me; I have been very happy here.

When I first met you, I learned two things. First, you make me more happy than I was before and second, I am scared to have that much happiness again.

You keep asking yourself if I am a good person, and your friends ask you if you learned nothing from the last foreign boyfriend that you had. I think about this and wonder if it is fair for me to be judged like that, only because I am a foreigner, and of course it is not fair.. However, even before I moved to Taiwan, I realized people would dislike me because I am a foreigner. Of course, that is not the reason for me to write anything at all. As it is right now, my thought is this; should I date you, or should I give up?